Thursday, January 25, 2018

Happy New Year!!! Everything has Changed.

Hello my stitchy friends. It has been a very long time since my last post.  I was supposed to come back with an update a week later around September 22nd 2017 but life had other plans. I wanted to post about the Heart Walk me, my best friend and my daughter did for the Cleveland Heart Association.

But leaving the Heart Walk I had some devastating news. My sister had a heart attack and a blood clot on her heart. When I got the news she was basically already gone. She was on life support when I arrived but it was never her wish to be on life support. Ever.. It took some talking to her son whom was appointed her medical power of attorney and knew her wishes. He removed the life support and on to Hospice wing we all went for 2 days. She slipped quietly away with us surrounding her on the 27th. I was not ready to let her go. Every day even now is hard without my rock supporting me. I miss her so much. But I have my many memories to help me climb out of my despair. 
So with the passing of my sister that left her six children all frazzled and lost. They visited me more frequently and so did the rest of my large family. My sisters youngest son had to come stay with me. He is 19 but not mentally that age. So he was pretty dependent on his mom. This did not go over well with Angelo. He started to become more aggravated with not only me but with my family and friends. He still could not speak and therapy sessions were not doing much to help him. I cannot justify why I can only assume what was bothering him at the time. So I communicated with the dry erase board everything that was happening. He understood everything but he did not like it. I took some bereavement time off from work but with only my income supporting us I had to go back. I started working overtime like crazy. I work in retail IT support and with us sliding down to Black Friday it was raining overtime. He really did not like that. So one night I came home and he got physical with me. I tried to ignore it but as time passed it just escalated to where I feared sleeping in the same bed as him. I did not want him to hit me in my sleep.  He refused to eat food I prepared, he would not let me help him. He just seemed to grow to hate the site of me. I accepted it and made plans to leave. That was the end of November 2017.

It hurt. It still hurts today. But I put my big girl panties on and started to look for somewhere for me, my nephew, my son, my daughter and 3 year old grandson to live. The first place I called emailed me back right away. I went to view the apartment. And saw this in the bathroom. 
So I knew I found our new home. I worked hard to secure the money to move and on December 30th 2017 I moved into the new apartment. With myself and the kids. Angelo is now in another state living with his daughter and I have not had any contact with him since. And that is the part that hurts the most. Her and I text but she does not answer any questions that I have concerning him. I accept her distance as I have moved forward with the request for medical and power of attorney to be transferred to her. I have an appointment with the attorney on Monday to start with the dissolution of marriage aka divorce. I really thought he and I would be together until one of us died but I guess that is just wishful thinking. I thought I would never have to be alone again. Everyday is different for me but I am making progress. The kids are happy and I guess that is what matters the most. 

During all the sad times I had my stitchy friends. FlossTube, Instagram, Stitchy blogs and Facebook. I continued to stitch. That has not left me at all. Stitching still soothes me. I just wanted to say thanks to everyone. Again you guys don't know it but you helped me tremendously through the rough 2017 holiday season. 

Okay on to stitching..
Halloween Cat by Satsuma Street 
Completed 9/19/17
Still not fully finished but I love her

Royal Games I by Mirabilia
Memorial piece for my sister Tina
She was a master card player. 
32 ct linen 2 over 2 
My first Mirabilia, my first attempt with linen and beads. Oh My!!!


Update on my first Heaven and Earth Design
Storykeep Fragile by Kirsten Mills
18 ct Oatmeal Aida 2 over 1
I have purchased 5 more patterns from them since this one..Love HAED's



Epic Pokemon Gen I by Servatron
16 ct Aida 2 over 1
This has a total of 27 pages in the pattern

And in Conclusion I have joined the Facebook Group Soulful Stitching and Stitch from Stash. Soulful Stitching group has Year of Wips 2018. Below are my list of WIPS. LOL, I blame the entire stitching community for all the purchases I have made through out the year. I have way too much stash as a new stitcher. So now I have to finish things I have already purchased. The Facebook Stitch from Stash group will keep me and my stitchy budget of 25 dollars a month under control for the year. 

Thank you for stopping by..Until next time.. Happy Stitching!!!!!







8 comments:

  1. Oh, wow...so sorry to hear about the awful things that have happened to you. For what it's worth, I think you did the right thing - you were always there for your family and husband, but in the end you had to do what was right for you and those that depend on you to feel safe.
    I'm glad your stitching is a bot of comfort to you in those difficult times. You made some great progress, your Halloween Cat is lovely :) Hope to see you around, I am also part of the Stitch from Stash group.

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    1. Thank you for the kind words. You will see me around the stitching community. For sure. My heart hurts but mostly because I really did not see this coming. It was what was best for all involved. I am going to get through this. I know it. Thank you again Leonore.

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  2. You certainly have had a difficult time. Stay strong. Our needle work does get us through difficult times.

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    1. Yes it does. Thank you Gracie for the support. I hope you are doing well too.

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  3. LeShawn I am so terribly, terribly sorry it has come to this. You and Angelo are in my prayers. God bless you and the children.

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    1. I hope to have something positive to post on his recovery in the future if his daughter gives me an update. Thank you for the prayers..I appreciate it.

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  4. So many changes in your life after a tough time. I hope that you can continue your life now in the best possible way.All the best for your future.
    Such lovely projects you have been working on.

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  5. Thinking of you and offering up prayers for you and your family. Wishing you a better 2018.

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