Tuesday, July 25, 2017

Update on Life and Cross Stitch Progress

   It has been a very emotional month since I last posted on this blog. I see I have some followers since I added the button. That took forever. Thank you all for following. 
   I want to say a big thank you to all that have been sending up prayers and support to me and Angelo. He was moved to the nursing home and the road to recovery begun. It was very trying. I can say that he his stronger physically and medically he is okay. Its the global aphasia that is the greatest challenge we are facing. He is in a wheelchair. With assistance he is able to move from bed to chair. And back. Still not walking but does have the movement of his right leg again.So that is a plus. The right hand is still not moving yet. 
   Just before logging in to write this post the social worker at the nursing home facility called and said the insurance company is pushing for a release for 8/3/17. I wish I could be happy about this but I am on the fence. See the problem is he is unable to communicate verbally or with the use of any type of visual aide. Still needs assistance with bathing and toileting. (Which everyday I assist him with.)But I am now the sole provider for the household. So I have to leave him in the care of someone while I am at work. Me and the family are working together to come up with a plan. Our home has a serious flight of stairs to get to the full bath and that is not going to work for him. So we are going to move him to his dad's home. I really wanted him to come home but I guess that is not in his best interest right now. I feel so alone without him. 
  Its like the most intelligent person I know just lost his mind. I look at him sometimes and wonder if he remembers the love we had. For a short while I thought he had forgotten me altogether. But the other day he reached out to me and tried to say baby, then gave me a kiss. I was so happy. He loved me like no other man I have ever known. From the moment we met he had me smiling everyday. And now I don't know if he will ever love like that again. He is very childlike so we may never be the same as we once were. I have to believe in time things will improve. I am going to speak with a counselor about the feelings I am having. So wish me luck on moving forward. I am scared I am losing him. The family has all kinds of input but he is my husband. I hope they do not try and take him from me. I am 4 feet 11 inches tall and they underestimate me. They better not try me. Or they will feel the fury in me. 
  
Okay, enough with the venting. 

    I received a prize for a drawing from minnie-allxxs.blogspot.com. She had 4 patterns to win and 7 entries. She surprised us all and gave everyone who entered a pattern. I plan to stitch this during the holidays.

 I created a Instagram page to log my progress with my projects. Same name as the blog. I started my first Heaven and Earth Design. When I started watching FlossTube videos I knew I had to have a HAED. But not a massive one. Now they have small sizes. So I have a Storykeep design. I worked on it for a bit. Its still going to take a while to stitch. 

   I have not worked on the Elephant design. I just find it so boring to stitch with the one color. I must finish it soon though. It's for a friend. I wish I did not tell her I was stitching her something and then I could put it off longer. Alas, I am dedicating this week to finishing it
  
 And my love of course is the Halloween Cat. I had another visit from the dreaded frog. It was a small patch but it still put me off. And I found a small spot (ugggggh!) on the fabric. I hope it comes out when I wash it. I am going to focus on finishing the Elephant and Kitty so I can have some alone time with my HAED. LOL

                                 This is the pattern I was gifted from Minnie's blog.
                                                         
                                         This is my very first HAED. Fragile by Kirstin Mills.
                                              Stitching this on 18 ct Oatmeal Aida.
                                         I was using baggies. I switched to bobbins last night.
                                                             Which took forever.

This was my start on 18 ct after getting rid of the 25 ct magic guide
                                                 
                                                                Halloween Cat
                                                            28 ct Jobelan
                                                 The color of the fabric is Denim

Elephant Sampler
Stitched on 18 ct. hand dyed fabric from Garibaldi's Needle Works
Floss color 3051 DMC 

Well my Stitchy friends, until next time.

26 comments:

  1. LeShawn, I really like the sentiment on the pattern you won from Minnie's blog, it really fits what you are going through now, how important it is to share faith, offer prayer and gather hope. I pray your husband continues to make steady progress with his recovery. He knows that you are there taking care of him, his kiss and effort to say baby says it all.Hang on to that kiss! You need hope and strength to get through this very trying time and I hope his family supports your choices.

    Your making great progess on all your stitches. I know what you mean about getting bored with one color, the elephants are coming out nicely though and it's a lovely gift for your friend. I hope the rest of your week goes well. Mary@stitchingfriendsforever

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    1. Thank you Mary. I feel Minnie sent me the pattern I needed to have. It is so fitting. I am throwing myself into my crafts to help me everyday. It relieves my mind. While at the same time still thinking about what needs to be done. I have faith so all will work out. Have a great week too.

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  2. Love your elephant sampler! It will be gorgeous when finished. I really like the sentiment on the Erica Michaels' piece. Lifting you and your husband up in prayer.

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    1. I love the sentiment on the piece as well. Now what fabric and colors to use. Thank you Robin for the prayers. I appreciate it.

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  3. That Erica Michael's pattern is very pretty. I agree with Mary, the design fits what you are going through now.

    The elephant sampler is adorable, try to make 10 stitches per day. :)
    Your HAED dragon is pretty and the Halloween cat is sweet, love the colours!

    My sincerest best wishes.
    Lili

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    1. Thank you Lili. I am so close to a finish on the elephant sampler. I made it my focus piece until it is done. The Erica Michael's pattern will be kitted up soon. Trying to find the right fabric and colors. I figure I will stitch on it during the holiday season.

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  4. It breaks my heart to read your words about your husband LeShawn... I truly hope he keeps improving each and every day even if it is just a little at a time. I hope your stitching brings you a sense of calm during these trying times! Hang in there...

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    1. Thank you Carol, I know all things will get better in time. Slowly but surely it will. Cross stitching really does ease my mind. It has been what I needed to calm me sometimes. Thank you for your kind words. I appreciate them.

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  5. Keeping your husband, you and his family in prayer. It will be difficult on everyone but if you have patience and are able to talk things out both with a counselor and with the family members helping you then hopefully things will work out for all involved. Maybe you can talk to the nursing home social worker and she can put you in touch with people to help both with Angelo and with your home situation. Sometimes they have connections to organizations that can help with home modifications to make his life easier. Just listen to God and his direction, he always leads you the right way.

    Your stitching looks great and I agree, Minnie sent you the perfect pattern.

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    1. Thank you Faith. I will continue to try and work with the family. I have reached out to the nursing home social worker. Setting up things to be ready for his homecoming. I may have to work on the Erica Micheals piece before the holidays. It would be great to have that done and framed in our home.

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  6. I've been wondering how you were going in your journey with your husband and his care. Life is so tough sometimes and it's really hard to know how to deal with the changes and the choices you have to make. It's good that stitching is something you can do - I really do believe that needlework in all it's form is therapeutic. I'll keep you in my thoughts - all the way from Scotland:-)

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    1. Hello Ann, All the way in Scotland. Such a beautiful place to live. I am in Cleveland, Ohio. I do not know how I would get through this without my crafts to ground me. I also crochet too. So I agree needle work in all its forms are therapeutic. I will update my blog with how life is progressing outside the nursing home. Thank you for the supportive words. Its good to know you are out there rooting for us.

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  7. LeShawn,
    I just discovered your blog and love your projects. Also, terribly sorry to hear about your dear husband. I'm remembering your family in my nightly prayers. Blessings,
    MaryO1230
    San Pedro, CA

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    1. Thank you for compliments and the prayers. Thank you so much. I appreciate all the prayers we get.

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  8. So sorry to hear about your husband and the choices you have to make for him to be in best care. I do hope that he improves a little each day. And I hope that your stitching relieves a bit of the stress that you have.
    Your projects are so beautiful, I particularly love the Halloween Cat. Great progress on the HAED and on the elephants.

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  9. Each day is a blessing. A chance to learn something new. I finished the elephant sampler. Now working on the Cat. I want it done by Halloween. Thank you for the kind words and the stitching definitely helps.

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  10. Hi LeShawn,
    You have kindly signed up to my Needle Minder Exchange back in July. I have sent you an email asking for your details and have not heard back from you. If you are still interested in taking part (or not), please email me your address. I am only waiting from you now before I can contact all participants with their recipients details ;) Thanks, Mii Stitch

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    1. My deepest apologies. I totally missed the email. I have found it and replied. Thank you for giving me a notice before dropping me out.

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  11. You are in my prayers, and just so you know, my father always told me that God listens to sinners like me. So I'll keep praying and sinning. I am so sorry about your husband, and I hope stitching gives you some solace.

    With love and prayers,
    Kathleen

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  12. Thank you so much for the prayers. None of us are perfect. We are all sinners I suppose. I appreciate the support. Stitching gives me peace of mind for sure. Enjoy your day.

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  13. I can tell you from my blogging experience that when my husband was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer the blogging friends reached out to send caring words and encouragement,. When he passed on June 21 2017, I felt the love and hugs. We are all here for you. Stay strong and be his voice. Glad you added the follow button!

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    1. Thank you Gracie. I was following your blog when your dear husband fell ill. It was surprised that you were willing to share those days with us. I know its not easy for you at this time still. I really appreciate all the love and support from all over this community. I know I am not truly alone. I will stay his voice until he can speak on his own. I will try and stay strong for us. I thank you for your words of encouragement. It took me forever to figure out how to add that darn button. Enjoy your evening.

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  14. Hello LeShawn. Thank you for your kind words on my blog. I am praying for you and your husband and family.

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    1. Thank you for the prayers and support. I appreciate it.

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  15. Hello LeShawn...I'm so sorry to hear about your dear husband. I'm keeping you, your husband and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Love your halloween stitching. Take care and God Bless. Debbie xx

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  16. Beautiful stitching! It's my first visit to your blog, and I'm so sorry for what you're going through with your husband. I hope things improve for you both.

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